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Things feel strange everywhere I turn nowadays. I HATE being out in public and I find society quite toxic ... especially for those of us with preexisting mental health issues and myself being on the autism spectrum everything seems surreal and off to me. Mostly I try to distract myself with a computer game or spending time with my plants (snake plant and a vine plant) and I'm most happy when its quiet with my computers with the TV going behind me for background noise. Its getting harder to distract myself after this election and people were already hostile towards the LGBTQIA community (I'm Gay / Asexual) and I don't feel safe anymore so I isolate big time now and my agoraphobia is off the chart as of late. I've been struggling this year anyway.

Anyways.

I think I'll talk about computers for a bit.
I spent 9 months using Zorin OS but it became too frustrating from lack of ease of use and incompatibility between distros. I'm now back to XP with Mypal68 @K4sum1 's Lun3r and supermium and so far so good to be free from the telemetry but I'm also limited on what I do with NT 5.1 in 2024. Right now, I'm only using live sessions with anything I can't do on XP because I don't own a smart phone. Yeah, I know, I'm like the only person left without a cell phone, but I'm poor and I can't afford but only the basics and I don't drive.

Gonna eat dinner and will return in a few hours.

Hope everyone here at eclipse is managing ok

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Posted: 08 Nov 2024, 01:25

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Ok and okay....

I've been finding my nights to be as rough as the days taking into account my nightmares and flashbacks.

My mind has just drawn a blank so I'll catch up with everyone tomorrow.

Be well,

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xperceniol_sal wrote: * 06 Nov 2024, 23:03
Hi @K4sum1 ... I'm back, but I don't know how much posting I'll be doing (largely) due to the fact that I've been struggling as of late; but I'll try to post each day ... oh and BTW I do enjoy Lun3r on XP.

I hope things improve, it's nice to see you here and that you're using my software. I'm not sure when I'll next update Lun3r, I've been super busy and now especially so doing research after the election results. Lemme know if some site breaks in Lun3r but is fine in New Moon and that'll probably push me to update it. It kinda only exists currently since I wanted Interlink but with portable mode (Eclipse Mail/eMail) and I figured why not experiment with the browsers too.

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 06 Nov 2024, 23:03
I left you some postings over at the XP Forums so I'm hoping you've just not been able to check the forum and I hope you aren't angry with me.

If a forum doesn't give me email notifications, and I have no pending questions, I kinda don't check it. So I haven't been looking over there. I'll look over there in a bit. I'm not angry with you, in fact, quite the opposite.

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 06 Nov 2024, 23:03
I hope we are still friends along with @SatoshiHikari and @Mina ... Its truly a privilege to know you 3.

I'm still friends with you, and I'd assume they're still friends too. Might be a while for responses from either due to the nature of forums. Something I hate about phpBB is that email notifications for messages randomly disabled for no reason, and I worry that may have happened to them. (It's happened to me twice so far)

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 06 Nov 2024, 23:03
I can no longer get into msfn after the new log in policy; but its ok because my time was up over there anyway ... so I'll stay here and the XP Forums.

I'm not sure what they did, and I don't feel like logging out to test. Not that I'd care too much as I don't use the forum that often, however it's still a place I'd like to be able to access to reply to stuff. Eclipse was made due to hostile (to older browsers) changes to MSFN in 2020-2021.

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 06 Nov 2024, 23:03
Take good care everyone and I hope this finds everybody well. Just keep going forward regardless of the obstacles.

That's a good message to keep in mind. I want everyone to take good care as well. Had this been a bit earlier, or the events of the 5th gone a bit differently, I might not have quoted it. It's needed now more than ever in these times.

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Posted: 08 Nov 2024, 02:14

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xperceniol_sal wrote: * 06 Nov 2024, 23:49
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Yes, I'll stay here for good.

If you'd rather me not pry, you don't need to unspoiler, it's not that important.

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xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Things feel strange everywhere I turn nowadays. I HATE being out in public and I find society quite toxic ... especially for those of us with preexisting mental health issues and myself being on the autism spectrum everything seems surreal and off to me.

This is exactly how I feel. I'm also in the same boat with mental issues and autism.

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Mostly I try to distract myself with a computer game or spending time with my plants (snake plant and a vine plant) and I'm most happy when its quiet with my computers with the TV going behind me for background noise.

Also pretty similar to how I act. Although instead of gaming or doing much outside the computer, I mostly do work either on my projects, chat on Discord, or watch YT. I almost always have YT playing for background noise as well, mostly computer/tech or gaming news vids that I half care about because i ether can't use or run it on 7 or I'll probably never own it for a variety of reasons. Although with my deep research I've been doing, it's been more paused than not while I've been awake recently. When I do pay full attention to YT videos, it's mostly only gaming or general news videos. For gaming, usually groups of people having fun playing games and making jokes. Something I probably won't be able to do due to my social anxiety when I go beyond text. General news should be self explanatory, however I go for the more entertaining or funny videos. Only election news got me watching a mainstream media live YT feed.

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Its getting harder to distract myself after this election and people were already hostile towards the LGBTQIA community (I'm Gay / Asexual) and I don't feel safe anymore so I isolate big time now and my agoraphobia is off the chart as of late. I've been struggling this year anyway.

I feel the same here. Maybe I'd be fine pulling off being straight as very few people have any real information about me and know I'm gay. Not even my family knows I'm gay, I've never met anyone I've fallen in love with in real life. However being disabled, that I depend on to live, and that may become a big issue depending on what happens. I think I have a plan on how to get out if things get real bad, but it'll take time and coordination with family to know if that can happen.

I'm technically Bi, but I'm not interested in being with a woman. Also I'd probably be trans if I knew about it when I was younger and had a chance of passing, however that didn't happen so I guess that helps in this scenario. I guess I wish I was a straight woman.

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xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 00:04
I spent 9 months using Zorin OS but it became too frustrating from lack of ease of use and incompatibility between distros. I'm now back to XP with Mypal68 @K4sum1 's Lun3r and supermium and so far so good to be free from the telemetry but I'm also limited on what I do with NT 5.1 in 2024.

Yeah, that's how I feel with Linux. I feel like there needs to be a new OS to displace Linux with a single defined base and compatibility target. Also being GUI first and easy to use. I guess the potentials would be ReactOS if it ever becomes stable or maybe SerenityOS. I would say maybe BSD, however current BSD's are mostly text based requiring manual GUI installation. Forking one with a GUI would inherently be a new compatibility target due to how different they can be, so it's not really applicable here.

If I were to use XP, I'd go 5.2 XP x64 as it should be more stable and has slightly better application compatibility. However maybe it would be moot for your setup. I wouldn't be able to use below 7 well as my main due to the big usability improvements that came with 7, and no good (free or even cracked) backports to the earlier versions. That's outside of the many 7+ applications and drivers I'd need, and OCAPI can't run all of them yet.

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Right now, I'm only using live sessions with anything I can't do on XP because I don't own a smart phone. Yeah, I know, I'm like the only person left without a cell phone, but I'm poor and I can't afford but only the basics and I don't drive.

I'd suggest a 7+ VM if you can run it. Although I figure you should be able to get something like a used S7 for very cheap and use it with WiFi if you need be. You don't need a cell plan to use a phone outside of place calls or send texts. However you can get a "free" FreedomPop plan for 100/100/100 mins/text/MB. All it requires is a initial purchase for the SIM card and manual free renewal every month. You'd need to be careful about usage though as you get automatically enrolled into a paid plan if you go over. I initially got it to test AT&T service when I was trying to get it to work on unofficial devices. It worked better than I expected and I started using an AT&T MVNO as my main carrier a few months ago. So I mostly just keep the FreedomPop SIM around for AT&T VoLTE testing when I need it, and multiple accounts on services pesky for a phone number.

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Hope everyone here at eclipse is managing ok

Outside of election fears, I'm doing fine. I hope everyone here is doing ok as well.

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xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 01:25
I've been finding my nights to be as rough as the days taking into account my nightmares and flashbacks.

My mind has just drawn a blank so I'll catch up with everyone tomorrow.

I have trouble sleeping if I try to sleep at a normal time. Sometimes I have patches where it just works, but eventually my body will just not want to fall asleep so I have to move my schedule to get a good amount of sleep. Eventually I just quit caring and have no consistent schedule anymore aside from the short bursts my body decides to have one for seemingly no reason.

Probably unhealthy, but if I'm extra busy sometimes I just don't sleep even when I'm tired, resulting in me being awake for 30+ hours. I've done this the past few days, and the election did not help. Today I'm finally feeling very tired at a normalish time, so maybe I'll break that pattern today.

I can't remember the last time I had a nightmare, however I also couldn't tell you what my last dream was either. I mean to write them down, but I always forget. Last time I wrote one down was over half a year ago, and before that over a year ago. Maybe related to my sleep issues.

Maybe related, maybe not idk, but my eyes feel like shit. Text looks blurry at my average sitting distance and have for a while. Maybe I just need to sleep. Could be related to staring at this board for hours typing responses idk.

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xperceniol_sal wrote: *   08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Things feel strange everywhere I turn nowadays. I HATE being out in public and I find society quite toxic ... especially for those of us with preexisting mental health issues and myself being on the autism spectrum everything seems surreal and off to me.
This is exactly how I feel. I'm also in the same boat with mental issues and autism.

xperceniol_sal wrote: *   08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Mostly I try to distract myself with a computer game or spending time with my plants (snake plant and a vine plant) and I'm most happy when its quiet with my computers with the TV going behind me for background noise.
Also pretty similar to how I act. Although instead of gaming or doing much outside the computer, I mostly do work either on my projects, chat on Discord, or watch YT. I almost always have YT playing for background noise as well, mostly computer/tech or gaming news vids that I half care about because i ether can't use or run it on 7 or I'll probably never own it for a variety of reasons. Although with my deep research I've been doing, it's been more paused than not while I've been awake recently. When I do pay full attention to YT videos, it's mostly only gaming or general news videos. For gaming, usually groups of people having fun playing games and making jokes. Something I probably won't be able to do due to my social anxiety when I go beyond text. General news should be self explanatory, however I go for the more entertaining or funny videos. Only election news got me watching a mainstream media live YT feed.

xperceniol_sal wrote: *   08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Its getting harder to distract myself after this election and people were already hostile towards the LGBTQIA community (I'm Gay / Asexual) and I don't feel safe anymore so I isolate big time now and my agoraphobia is off the chart as of late. I've been struggling this year anyway.
I feel the same here. Maybe I'd be fine pulling off being straight as very few people have any real information about me and know I'm gay. Not even my family knows I'm gay, I've never met anyone I've fallen in love with in real life. However being disabled, that I depend on to live, and that may become a big issue depending on what happens. I think I have a plan on how to get out if things get real bad, but it'll take time and coordination with family to know if that can happen.

I'm technically Bi, but I'm not interested in being with a woman. Also I'd probably be trans if I knew about it when I was younger and had a chance of passing, however that didn't happen so I guess that helps in this scenario. I guess I wish I was a straight woman.

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What is shocking is that Trump did not gain any votes yet won the popular vote. Democrats just didn't vote this time, or what I'm hoping is there was tampering with the election and there should've been a lot more votes. I can't understand the apathy for what very well could be the last election in the US. Trump literally told voters they wouldn't need to vote again.

xperceniol_sal wrote: *   08 Nov 2024, 00:04
I spent 9 months using Zorin OS but it became too frustrating from lack of ease of use and incompatibility between distros. I'm now back to XP with Mypal68 @K4sum1 's Lun3r and supermium and so far so good to be free from the telemetry but I'm also limited on what I do with NT 5.1 in 2024.
Yeah, that's how I feel with Linux. I feel like there needs to be a new OS to displace Linux with a single defined base and compatibility target. Also being GUI first and easy to use. I guess the potentials would be ReactOS if it ever becomes stable or maybe SerenityOS. I would say maybe BSD, however current BSD's are mostly text based requiring manual GUI installation. Forking one with a GUI would inherently be a new compatibility target due to how different they can be, so it's not really applicable here.

If I were to use XP, I'd go 5.2 XP x64 as it should be more stable and has slightly better application compatibility. However maybe it would be moot for your setup. I wouldn't be able to use below 7 well as my main due to the big usability improvements that came with 7, and no good (free or even cracked) backports to the earlier versions. That's outside of the many 7+ applications and drivers I'd need, and OCAPI can't run all of them yet.

xperceniol_sal wrote: *   08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Right now, I'm only using live sessions with anything I can't do on XP because I don't own a smart phone. Yeah, I know, I'm like the only person left without a cell phone, but I'm poor and I can't afford but only the basics and I don't drive.
I'd suggest a 7+ VM if you can run it. Although I figure you should be able to get something like a used S7 for very cheap and use it with WiFi if you need be. You don't need a cell plan to use a phone outside of place calls or send texts. However you can get a "free" FreedomPop plan for 100/100/100 mins/text/MB. All it requires is a initial purchase for the SIM card and manual free renewal every month. You'd need to be careful about usage though as you get automatically enrolled into a paid plan if you go over. I initially got it to test AT&T service when I was trying to get it to work on unofficial devices. It worked better than I expected and I started using an AT&T MVNO as my main carrier a few months ago. So I mostly just keep the FreedomPop SIM around for AT&T VoLTE testing when I need it, and multiple accounts on services pesky for a phone number.

xperceniol_sal wrote: *   08 Nov 2024, 00:04
Hope everyone here at eclipse is managing ok
Outside of election fears, I'm doing fine. I hope everyone here is doing ok as well.

the election had us all shookup the past few months but i think the right decision was made (your free to disagree of course)

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I just don't sleep even when I'm tired, resulting in me being awake for 30+ hours. I've done this the past few days, and the election did not help. Today I'm finally feeling very tired at a normalish time, so maybe I'll break that pattern today.[/quote]

Sorry that quote didn't quite work well Lol....

Ugh 30 hours, I go nuts if that happens. I'm glad you feel better and I can also take normalish most days.

Thank you very much for taking the time to reply as you did above - I know you are busy and I appreciate that you welcomed me back. You see, I had thought otherwise when you just didn't get email notifications over at XP Forums. See, I do have issues with trust and I guess in 52 years I've been hurt and burned by countless people that I automatically expect people to turn on me. I admit it was my paranoia and fears of losing friendship.

Thank you so very very much for that huge share and I understand you not sharing this information with your family. I cam out of the closet at 21 but for the most part we didn't discuss it very much; but they did turn around afterwards and fully support me. My father has long passed away and my mother is in full dementia now and no longer recognises me ... I try to call her anyway and she always says I sound like a nice guy (hehe). Strangely enough they were both solid republicans but they were not bigots. I think my dad might have been when he was younger but he changed. We'll keep our fingers crossed this new upcoming administration wont take away any human rights we have.

@SatoshiHikari ...

Regardless of whether or not I disagree is irrelevant since the decision is already done, let us hope though the T and V don't put into action project 2025 or project 47 because that would be an end to democracy. Let us hope he will actually do his job and try to fix the economy and work on that rather than worry so much about social issues; but thank you for saying " (your free to disagree of course)" we can agree to disagree - maybe that makes sense. It shows great maturity on your part to say that.

Ok so I'll write more today when I feel it.

See ya L8r

EDIT: Just found some mistakes I needed to correct. Sorry about that.

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By any chance ... does anybody have a good movie recommendations? Any genre! Please feel free to post in my thread about anything at all really. I like scary movies for the most part but I also like action and thriller - sometimes a drama (but I need to be in that frame of mind) but I'm mostly looking for a good distraction from this toxic society and I'm very much a 'home-body' and I hardly go out anymore. I isolate BIG TIME nowadays and movies are the air I breathe.

Thanks in advance.

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xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 15:32
Ugh 30 hours, I go nuts if that happens. I'm glad you feel better and I can also take normalish most days.

I'll probably also go to bed at a normalish time today. I feel tired. (I wrote this at like 8 or 10, I got distracted and now it's almost 2.)

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 15:32
Thank you very much for taking the time to reply as you did above - I know you are busy and I appreciate that you welcomed me back. You see, I had thought otherwise when you just didn't get email notifications over at XP Forums. See, I do have issues with trust and I guess in 52 years I've been hurt and burned by countless people that I automatically expect people to turn on me. I admit it was my paranoia and fears of losing friendship.

I am less than half as old and I have the same issues. Although it's more so on faster paced platforms like Discord. Little trouble seems to happen on forums like these.

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 15:32
Thank you so very very much for that huge share and I understand you not sharing this information with your family. I cam out of the closet at 21 but for the most part we didn't discuss it very much; but they did turn around afterwards and fully support me. My father has long passed away and my mother is in full dementia now and no longer recognises me ... I try to call her anyway and she always says I sound like a nice guy (hehe). Strangely enough they were both solid republicans but they were not bigots. I think my dad might have been when he was younger but he changed. We'll keep our fingers crossed this new upcoming administration wont take away any human rights we have.

I want to offer condolences, however I'm confused because you sound so cheery about it. When I was younger a big fear of mine was later in life getting dementia or a similar brain condition and slowly being unable to remember things or do anything. Nowadays I just don't care and it almost sounds peaceful in a way. I feel almost ready to die, but I also don't want to die and I'm so conflicted about it. I don't know what to do. I wanna make projects and contribute to the community but everyone has to stir up shit and get others to hate me. So I almost just don't want to do anything and die. Me using my own projects and contributions will at least keep me making them though, as long as I live and have the time to do it.

I'd assume they grew up before Republicans went full Christian, that development with Reagan slowly turned into the Christian Fascism we're threatened with today.

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 08 Nov 2024, 15:32
Regardless of whether or not I disagree is irrelevant since the decision is already done, let us hope though the T and V don't put into action project 2025 or project 47 because that would be an end to democracy. Let us hope he will actually do his job and try to fix the economy and work on that rather than worry so much about social issues; but thank you for saying " (your free to disagree of course)" we can agree to disagree - maybe that makes sense. It shows great maturity on your part to say that.

Well they put those out there for a reason. They're probably going to do it. No Republican has been beneficial to the overall economy for a long while. Deporting immigrants and blanket tariffs are supposedly going to be the first changes and they will cause a lot more inflation.

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xperceniol_sal wrote: * 09 Nov 2024, 00:22
By any chance ... does anybody have a good movie recommendations? Any genre! Please feel free to post in my thread about anything at all really. I like scary movies for the most part but I also like action and thriller - sometimes a drama (but I need to be in that frame of mind) but I'm mostly looking for a good distraction from this toxic society and I'm very much a 'home-body' and I hardly go out anymore. I isolate BIG TIME nowadays and movies are the air I breathe.

I'm not big into movies or shows, however I may have a recommendation. I sometimes watch movies with my family, or more specifically they make me watch movies with them. Since it was October, they wanted to watch a horror movie, and that ended up being The Substance.

It's definitely not my type of film, and I didn't want to watch some parts of it. However the satire, the soundtrack, and the ending make me kinda like the film. I wouldn't want to watch the whole movie again, but I'd recommend it to others. Just make sure you know it's pretty disturbing before you go into it.

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K4sum1 wrote: * 09 Nov 2024, 07:41
I feel almost ready to die, but I also don't want to die and I'm so conflicted about it. I don't know what to do. I wanna make projects and contribute to the community but everyone has to stir up shit and get others to hate me. So I almost just don't want to do anything and die. Me using my own projects and contributions will at least keep me making them though, as long as I live and have the time to do it.

Na, don't give your haters that satisfaction, I'm glad you're not dead. I do understand though and I often get those feeling myself but I chase them away before they get out of control because I've dealt with suicidal ideation my whole life. You know, this whole thing could very well be professional jealousy due in part to your success with your projects; this happens. It sucks when you think people have your back only to discover they turn against you on a dime. In 52 years, I've had so many countless people do this that I no longer give out trust so easily or freely - remember trust is earned not given. I've become sour towards people now and I wouldn't wish that on anyone ... well maybe there are some people I would wish that on (hehe). I guess the only good thing that came out of it, is, I've learnt to appreciate my own company now and that was not always the case when I was young.

Ok, I'll write more later and I'm very happy to see our forum back up and its because of your hard work that this is a reality. You pulled through and I'm very grateful and I'm sure others are, as well. Ya know, cherish the few people you can still trust and don't give up on everyone like I have ... be open and honest and just be yourself and screw the rest of em. That being said, DO keep your guard up with people and only let that wall down when people PROVE they can be trusted (both online and in real life).

Again, I don't want you to die, you deserve as much as chance to thrive as the next person - you're a kind soul and there are people out there that enjoy taking others down to make themselves feel better. Its pretty sick and very sad state we find ourselves in.

I DO hope you did get to sleep since you had to work so hard to get things going again and hopefully you can iron out any issues as you go along and not put too much pressure on yourself.

Be well and stay well and stay strong against your h8rs, they don't deserve the satisfaction to know they've gotten your goat.

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Post subject: Then dust yourself off and try again

Posted: 10 Nov 2024, 22:54

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Gonna be dealing with rain for the remainder of the day. Been dealing with brain fog and my Depersonalization-derealization disorder is kicking my butt as of late. Might have dinner and see about finding something to watch. Just feel pretty empty inside.

Whilst waiting for dinner to arrive I'm playing a fun race car game.

Enjoy!

https://www.sonsaur.com/racing-cars/

I hope everybody reading is doing better than I am today.

Be back later.

I'm back:
Just feeling pretty hopeless today and sometimes I feel like life is chewing me up and spiting me out. I'm worn out by this life I did not want or ask for. Its all too much and I see others (rarely when I go out) and I feel too envious and it eats me up that I'm flawed and life is happening around me without my control. Also its getting even harder and harder to find good games online now for XP and I rely on distractions to get through the rough spots. My family is a mess and I'm glad I'm removed as my family treats me like I'm retarded. Its sucks! My computers are the air I breathe and my only outlet to the outside world, but I have very serious trust issues and I don't allow people to get very close anymore ... even online. I don't trust instant messaging now due in large part to an incident from 2014 where my safety became compromised. I don't trust email. I can't use discord because I don't have a cell phone anymore. I'm living a pirates life and a humble existence. I see society getting even more toxic over the next 4 years and I worry; not about the isolation because I'm happy with my own company, but rather that I'll close off myself and disassociate one day for good and I won't regain my independence. I don't want to go back to the group home if I can help it and this living facility is good for me. I don't need people. People drain you of your energy and I"m already drained of all energy nowadays. Living here has its drawbacks and sure I'm one of the highest functioning guys here but even sometimes I don't feel safe because so many people have turned conservative and I'm a liberal. I fit in like a square peg in a round hole in this life. I've lost all passion for life and I'm just getting older and older and existing.

I'm sorry to be so depressing but I'm just going through a rough patch is all and I"ll manage.

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Post subject: Then dust yourself off and try again

Posted: 11 Nov 2024, 01:00

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To be honest, I find this forum works the best for me on Mypal68 spoofed [Mozilla/5.0 (Windows NT 10.0; Win32; x86; rv:132.0) Gecko/20100101 Firefox/132.0].

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I try to avoid Chrome and rarely use Supermium because I don't know enough about it as I've always used FF based browsers since the beginning. 360 Chrome is a better backup 3rd choice when Mypal68 and Lun3r fail. Upgrading to Vista won't help me and my computers are too old to handle windows 8 or 10. I actually don't like windows 7 and I've only used it a handful of times and didn't enjoy it, but 'to each their own' and I prefer XP 32 bit. Maybe one day I'll format my computer and try out the 64 bit by SatoshiHikari on here, but for now, I'm working off of my acronis backups from and old installation. Linux was just not the answer for me.

EDIT: Sorry I had to edit this so many times, but my mind is very cloudy and I'm struggling to make sense today .

Last edited by xperceniol_sal on 11 Nov 2024, 02:02, edited 4 times in total.

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Post subject: Then dust yourself off and try again

Posted: 11 Nov 2024, 01:05

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xperceniol_sal wrote: * 11 Nov 2024, 01:00
To be honest, I find this forum works the best for me on Mypal68 spoofed [Mozilla/5.0 (Windows NT 10.0; Win32; x86; rv:132.0) Gecko/20100101 Firefox/132.0].

user_pref("general.oscpu.override", "Windows NT 10.0");
user_pref("general.useragent.override", "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows NT 10.0; Win32; x86; rv:132.0) Gecko/20100101 Firefox/132.0");

I try to avoid Chrome and rarely use Supermium because I don't know enough about it as I've always used FF based browsers since the beginning. 360 Chrome is a better backup 3rd choice when Mypal68 and Lun3r fail. Upgrading to Vista won't help me and my computers are too old to handle windows 8 or 10. I actually don't like windows 7 and I've only used it a handful of time and didn't enjoy it, but 'to each their own' and I prefer XP 32 bit. Maybe one day I'll format my computer are try out the 64 bit by SatoshiHikari on here, but for now, I'm working off of my acronis backups from and old installation. Linux was just not the answer for me.

the project is still just in its first release so its not exactly perfected quite yet but i could use bug testers

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Post subject: Then dust yourself off and try again

Posted: 11 Nov 2024, 01:11

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SatoshiHikari wrote: * 11 Nov 2024, 01:05

xperceniol_sal wrote: * 11 Nov 2024, 01:00
To be honest, I find this forum works the best for me on Mypal68 spoofed [Mozilla/5.0 (Windows NT 10.0; Win32; x86; rv:132.0) Gecko/20100101 Firefox/132.0].

user_pref("general.oscpu.override", "Windows NT 10.0");
user_pref("general.useragent.override", "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows NT 10.0; Win32; x86; rv:132.0) Gecko/20100101 Firefox/132.0");

I try to avoid Chrome and rarely use Supermium because I don't know enough about it as I've always used FF based browsers since the beginning. 360 Chrome is a better backup 3rd choice when Mypal68 and Lun3r fail. Upgrading to Vista won't help me and my computers are too old to handle windows 8 or 10. I actually don't like windows 7 and I've only used it a handful of time and didn't enjoy it, but 'to each their own' and I prefer XP 32 bit. Maybe one day I'll format my computer are try out the 64 bit by SatoshiHikari on here, but for now, I'm working off of my acronis backups from and old installation. Linux was just not the answer for me.
the project is still just in its first release so its not exactly perfected quite yet but i could use bug testers

Oh, I see, ok then I'll wait it out then. I"ll have to get back to you on whether or not I could be a beta tester. Right now I just have too much on my plate. But thank you for the reply and good luck with your project regardless. I do wish you success.

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Post subject: Then dust yourself off and try again

Posted: 11 Nov 2024, 01:26

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xperceniol_sal wrote: *   11 Nov 2024, 01:11

SatoshiHikari wrote: *   11 Nov 2024, 01:05

xperceniol_sal wrote: *   11 Nov 2024, 01:00
To be honest, I find this forum works the best for me on Mypal68 spoofed [Mozilla/5.0 (Windows NT 10.0; Win32; x86; rv:132.0) Gecko/20100101 Firefox/132.0].

user_pref("general.oscpu.override", "Windows NT 10.0");
user_pref("general.useragent.override", "Mozilla/5.0 (Windows NT 10.0; Win32; x86; rv:132.0) Gecko/20100101 Firefox/132.0");

I try to avoid Chrome and rarely use Supermium because I don't know enough about it as I've always used FF based browsers since the beginning. 360 Chrome is a better backup 3rd choice when Mypal68 and Lun3r fail. Upgrading to Vista won't help me and my computers are too old to handle windows 8 or 10. I actually don't like windows 7 and I've only used it a handful of time and didn't enjoy it, but 'to each their own' and I prefer XP 32 bit. Maybe one day I'll format my computer are try out the 64 bit by SatoshiHikari on here, but for now, I'm working off of my acronis backups from and old installation. Linux was just not the answer for me.
the project is still just in its first release so its not exactly perfected quite yet but i could use bug testers
Oh, I see, ok then I'll wait it out then. I"ll have to get back to you on whether or not I could be a beta tester. Right now I just have too much on my plate. But thank you for the reply and good luck with your project regardless. I do wish you success.

ver 1.0.0 beta is out on the project page on here if you wanted to try it out its free

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Post subject: Then dust yourself off and try again

Posted: 11 Nov 2024, 23:53

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Sorry, not doing very well ... maybe tomorrow I'll be in better shape. Sorry; not functional at all.

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I've been meaning to reply here, I have a reply opened in one of my tabs, but I just haven't gotten around to it yet. I hope I will soon, but it's been days.

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No worries K4sum1 ... just the fact that you replied means more than you realize. I'm OK. I realize your are busy.

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Struggling as of late to survive this rough patch I'm going through. Things feel pretty damn bleak from my perspective; so I must bring myself into my own little bubble and go into self preservation mode going forward. I have to stay away form the news at all cost. I can't worry anymore about things beyond my control and concern myself with recovering - it won't be easy under in this toxic society because I'm super sensitive to my surroundings. I'm not in a very good place mentally or physically for that matter, for me its about how long I stay down and wallow, I have to somehow pretend everything is normal somehow. I don't know. Don't know. I do know that I have to keep going and not give up or give in (they are not the same), but I could at some point give in without giving up - meaning give in to illness and allow myself to be treated - but not give up or let go of what I do have.

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