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Just on auto-pilot as of late and I don't know if I'm coming or going ... all I can say is dust yourself off and try try again (keep going). I simply have no words - sorry.

xperceniol_sal wrote: *

16 Nov 2025, 22:38

I try to be (somewhat) engaging when I'm around people but I fail miserably. Even when I smile its fake but what else to do but fake it even if you aren't making it.

It's rare that I'm talkative. It happened but it's all in the past and under specific circumstances. Adulthood is rather lame, not much to make of it.

I'm only talkative online but in person I only speak when spoken to. Well at 53 (will be 54 in May) I'm not EVEN CLOSE to the person I once was growing up. Yeah, adulthood is just mundane; to me anyway. I was very outgoing in my late teens and early 20's until I had a severe mental breakdown that resulted in me becoming an agoraphobic with very very severe social anxiety and suicidal depression.

Sorry about the short message but I typed a long message and accidentally hit the back button and lost it. I'll try to write more later. Have a good one.

EDIT:

Ok I just thought of something. UCyborg ... and anybody else ... you are more than welcome to vent about anything in my thread. ANYTHING! If that helps you to get crap off your shoulders - sometimes I need to do that too. I don't always have the answers or any solid advice other than 'from the heart' advice and I do care; know that.

Venting never addresses its cause.

Recent news said 53% voters on recent referendum voted against the euthanasia legalization law. Guess we're dying in pain and agony.

It also said Slovenes are dying out. Maybe anti-natalism is catching on?

UCyborg wrote: *

27 Nov 2025, 22:09

...Guess we're dying in pain and agony...

Hate to say it, but I do get it. Existing hurts.

UCyborg wrote: *

27 Nov 2025, 22:09

...euthanasia legalization law....

Sorry ... I was in a dark place yesterday but I feel better now and I DO want to say I"m (truly) sorry you're in such a dark place that you're even thinking of such. I get it though; but still, bad for the psyche ... I hope you will manage to find a bright spot to grasp on to to lift your spirit even a little to get you by. As I say, I know that dark place more than you realize.

-Mister Blobfish