Then dust yourself off and try again

xperceniol_sal · Post by **xperceniol_sal** » 21 Nov 2025, 00:06

Just on auto-pilot as of late and I don't know if I'm coming or going ... all I can say is dust yourself off and try try again (keep going). I simply have no words - sorry.

UCyborg · Post by **UCyborg** » 24 Nov 2025, 22:22

xperceniol_sal wrote: ↑16 Nov 2025, 22:38 I try to be (somewhat) engaging when I'm around people but I fail miserably. Even when I smile its fake but what else to do but fake it even if you aren't making it.

It's rare that I'm talkative. It happened but it's all in the past and under specific circumstances. Adulthood is rather lame, not much to make of it.

xperceniol_sal · Post by **xperceniol_sal** » 25 Nov 2025, 01:52

I'm only talkative online but in person I only speak when spoken to. Well at 53 (will be 54 in May) I'm not EVEN CLOSE to the person I once was growing up. Yeah, adulthood is just mundane; to me anyway. I was very outgoing in my late teens and early 20's until I had a severe mental breakdown that resulted in me becoming an agoraphobic with very very severe social anxiety and suicidal depression.

Sorry about the short message but I typed a long message and accidentally hit the back button and lost it. I'll try to write more later. Have a good one.

EDIT:

Ok I just thought of something. UCyborg ... and anybody else ... you are more than welcome to vent about anything in my thread. ANYTHING! If that helps you to get crap off your shoulders - sometimes I need to do that too. I don't always have the answers or any solid advice other than 'from the heart' advice and I do care; know that.

UCyborg · Post by **UCyborg** » 27 Nov 2025, 22:09

Venting never addresses its cause.

Recent news said 53% voters on recent referendum voted against the euthanasia legalization law. Guess we're dying in pain and agony.

It also said Slovenes are dying out. Maybe anti-natalism is catching on?

xperceniol_sal · Post by **xperceniol_sal** » 27 Nov 2025, 23:45

UCyborg wrote: ↑27 Nov 2025, 22:09...Guess we're dying in pain and agony...

Hate to say it, but I do get it. Existing hurts.

xperceniol_sal · Post by **xperceniol_sal** » 28 Nov 2025, 15:55

UCyborg wrote: ↑27 Nov 2025, 22:09...euthanasia legalization law....

Sorry ... I was in a dark place yesterday but I feel better now and I DO want to say I"m (truly) sorry you're in such a dark place that you're even thinking of such. I get it though; but still, bad for the psyche ... I hope you will manage to find a bright spot to grasp on to to lift your spirit even a little to get you by. As I say, I know that dark place more than you realize.

-Mister Blobfish

UCyborg · Post by **UCyborg** » 30 Nov 2025, 22:02

It would be only for terminally ill. Still progress I guess.

They'll never let anyone go for say, not feeling like being here, have to keep the system going.

UCyborg · Post by **UCyborg** » 02 Dec 2025, 23:25

I watched Building the PERFECT Linux PC with Linus Torvalds recently.

Linus Torvalds wrote:People are strange and you can't fix people.

The-10-Pen · Post by **The-10-Pen** » 03 Dec 2025, 11:16

I prefer --> Be Weird! Because normal isn't working!

xperceniol_sal · Post by **xperceniol_sal** » 04 Dec 2025, 02:18

I'm glad I'm not "normal" ... I'm strange and I"m not ashamed to admit it

UCyborg · Post by **UCyborg** » 05 Dec 2025, 23:54

I could use some normal. Sick of people and their weird bullshit.

xperceniol_sal · Post by **xperceniol_sal** » 06 Dec 2025, 22:35

I know and I don't deal all that with others drama either. I'd settle for bliss lol.....

UCyborg · Post by **UCyborg** » 07 Dec 2025, 22:47

I feel like I'm the only (closer to) normal person around and everyone else is nuts. Just automatons running some script. The thing when someone feels like they want to die and reactions of people around...c'mon, I mean honestly, no one gives a damn about anyone, the supposed "caring" in such situation is just a script to give the appearance of "caring" and "doing the right thing".

One thing about that video, Linus said he's not people person. How do such people end up with a partner and sometimes even children? Makes no sense.

The workplace organized something after work last Friday, going bowling and to the restaurant. Thought I won't go at first 'cause what's the point, but I did. Never tried bowling before. Somehow started OK, but ended up last at the end (pointwise). I don't even know how I feel about the whole thing or if I had fun...it just was...

Being in the restaurant afterwards was terrible. We were there for over 3 hours. So that's 3 hours of staring at the wall and listening to noise. And I had to use bathroom few times despite not much accumulating in the bladder in the first place, but the feeling was terrible.

Alone with my thoughts again for the weekend that would probably be spent in dark places entirely, I ended up installing Linux Mint 22.2 on my laptop to replace the old Ubuntu 16.04 install. I haven't booted that installation in a while and I don't think I'd mess with it again. Deleted Android (Bliss OS 11 to be exact) partition too, the version I had was too much for this laptop anyway. Maybe I'll buy some more RAM for it one of these days.

Was on the desktop PC for a short time, mostly just to copy some stuff to external disk. Thought it went kaput when it didn't come from sleep, sounded like not all fans started up and was stuck. It came back after powering it off and back on. I think this happened once or twice in the past. Who knows, if it makes it to April next year, it will be 17 years old.

The-10-Pen · Post by **The-10-Pen** » 07 Dec 2025, 23:19

My oldest turned 20yrs old this month.
Has two 17" monitors - SQUARE 4:3s.
I've had kids see them and think they are "futuristic" and 'fold in the middle'.
I have to show them that they are TWO monitors and that ALL monitors were SQUARE before they were born.

xperceniol_sal · Post by **xperceniol_sal** » 08 Dec 2025, 20:41

My Dell Dimension 3000 also turned 19 and it still works fine just very very slow with only 2GB of RAM lol

UCyborg · Post by **UCyborg** » 09 Dec 2025, 19:45

That laptop I have also has 2 GB of RAM and 256 MB of that is for onboard graphics. Might look into expanding one of these days. If I can still find something for it. It's 11 years old, so not as hopeless. Just hasn't been a priority as I tend to mostly use one computer.

I didn't use the old smartphone (which I mostly use only to give the desktop PC access to the internet) for 3 days, been left at 70%, standby, airplane mode, today I find the battery at 0%. There goes the uptime.

Started with these little less than 2 hours ago:

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BYPASS_VCHG_LOOP_DEBOUNCER=0
CAPACITY=1
CHARGE_FULL=2466000
CHARGE_FULL_DESIGN=2330000
CHARGING_ENABLED=1
CURRENT_NOW=-437828
CYCLE_COUNT=165
HEALTH=Good
INPUT_CURRENT_MAX=500000
INPUT_CURRENT_SETTLED=0
INPUT_CURRENT_TRIM=37
INPUT_VOLTAGE_REGULATION=0
ONLINE=1
PRESENT=1
STATUS=Charging
SYSTEM_TEMP_LEVEL=0
TECHNOLOGY=Li-ion
TEMP=186
TEMP_COOL=150
TEMP_WARM=450
VOLTAGE_MAX_DESIGN=4200000
VOLTAGE_MIN=4300000
VOLTAGE_MIN_DESIGN=4300000
VOLTAGE_NOW=3694333
VOLTAGE_OCV=-22

CURRENT_NOW=0.44 Amps
VOLTAGE_NOW=3.69 Volts

Now:

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BYPASS_VCHG_LOOP_DEBOUNCER=0
CAPACITY=30
CHARGE_FULL=2467000
CHARGE_FULL_DESIGN=2330000
CHARGING_ENABLED=1
CURRENT_NOW=-387885
CYCLE_COUNT=165
HEALTH=Good
INPUT_CURRENT_MAX=500000
INPUT_CURRENT_SETTLED=0
INPUT_CURRENT_TRIM=37
INPUT_VOLTAGE_REGULATION=0
ONLINE=1
PRESENT=1
STATUS=Charging
SYSTEM_TEMP_LEVEL=0
TECHNOLOGY=Li-ion
TEMP=205
TEMP_COOL=150
TEMP_WARM=450
VOLTAGE_MAX_DESIGN=4200000
VOLTAGE_MIN=4300000
VOLTAGE_MIN_DESIGN=4300000
VOLTAGE_NOW=3964828
VOLTAGE_OCV=-22

CURRENT_NOW=0.39 Amps
VOLTAGE_NOW=3.96 Volts
POWER_NOW=1.54 Watts

CHARGE_TYPE=USB

battery/online:1
usb/online:1

The laptop's battery is especially funky, particularly the battery meter, seems percent meter goes down slower than it should and then it suddenly jumps to 5%. The battery lasts for 2 hours at most.

The-10-Pen · Post by **The-10-Pen** » 09 Dec 2025, 19:56

I have an emergency-use-only prepaid phone that not even my family has the number!
I get NINE MONTHS on one battery charge.
Dead serious, the thing is never turned on except to add my three-month prepaid minutes, for traveling GPS, and the like.

Speaking of D#MN phones!
Do you "phone people" not HEAR how CRAPPY those things sound ???
I'm at a local Mexican restaurant and three people are sitting watching MOVIES on their PHONE while they wait for their lunch.
I HAD TO GET UP AND MOVE SEATS !!!
Teany Tiny Tinny sound!
Seriously, how BORED and or *ADDICTED* to a phone do you need to be to watch a MOVIE on it and listen to that teany tiny TIN-CAN sound ???

Post by **Duke** » 09 Dec 2025, 20:51

My DELL Vostro 200 is 17 years old and still alive and kicking. AFAIK, because I gave it to a relative who hasn't called me yet about a problem with it.

RedBeam · Post by **RedBeam** » 10 Dec 2025, 06:58

hello everyone

decided to pop on for once and just say merry christmas to you all and hope you things change for you your life and the lifes of others are what helps others know whats right and wrong and shows cheracter and just giving up on people is like giving up on you so please stay alive and keep moving forward the world may seem corrupt and evil but under all that there are real people i nthis world who actually care if you try to look for it

i know this because ive seen this all my life and know thats its true ive also grown up in a household that my family all grew and stayed with eachother and treated each other as family and hope you all can find this in life as well its not all that bad if you try to see through the news and the lies in this world there is true trusting peace thanks -Red

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