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Well ... it depends. Being out around people gets me weird. I wouldn't want to blend in with this toxic society anyway; but going for a walk in the evening with my support workers is sometimes helpful. I always say 'home sweet home' though.

People betray, backstab, gaslight, disappoint. And thanks to our useless parents, we're stuck here.

What was even the point? I'm a dead end, this cycle ends with me.

There are good and bad people everywhere around the world.
Find the good, in anything, ignore and forget the bad. Yes, it may take some time but to give up is the easy way.

Thank you, Duke! I'll try.

Duke wrote: *

15 Mar 2026, 22:29

There are good and bad people everywhere around the world.

And it's the bad ones that tend to leave the lasting impression...

UCyborg wrote: *

16 Mar 2026, 22:52

Duke wrote: *

15 Mar 2026, 22:29

There are good and bad people everywhere around the world.

And it's the bad ones that tend to leave the lasting impression...

Same here.

Kind of funny how these seem to always have an "OCD Symmetry" in their duration:

^I don't know why that is the case with my videos

It's nothing on your end. It's the UPLOADER having OCD and setting the length of his/her upload as "OCD Symmetric".

^I have all those except for the eating disorder and the Bipolar ... 'is what it is' or so they say. Good to see you btw

xperceniol_sal wrote: *

30 Mar 2026, 17:07

^I have all those except for the eating disorder and the Bipolar ... 'is what it is' or so they say. Good to see you btw

hi yes I'm still here but my main account is gone now (by my request not a ban) I will keep this account for visiting only i also use macos more it's been incredible

Possum98 wrote: *

30 Mar 2026, 17:11

i also use macos more it's been incredible

What is "macos" ? Some kind of taco made out of macaroni?

Oh, wait, partial blush moment... Did you mean macOS ???

The-10-Pen wrote: *

30 Mar 2026, 17:24

Oh, wait, partial blush moment... Did you mean macOS ???

yes macos 10.15 catalina on an old 2012 macbook pro

xperceniol_sal wrote: *

30 Mar 2026, 17:07

^I have all those except for the eating disorder and the Bipolar ... 'is what it is' or so they say.

How do you still manage? And for how long have you been in this hell?

UCyborg wrote: *

05 Apr 2026, 16:31

xperceniol_sal wrote: *

30 Mar 2026, 17:07

^I have all those except for the eating disorder and the Bipolar ... 'is what it is' or so they say.

How do you still manage? And for how long have you been in this hell?

I wouldn't say I manage all that well most of the time tbh but sometimes I OK I guess and have some good days. I've been dealing with mental health issues for 54 years (my birthday was 5 days ago) and I've always struggled for as long as I can recall. Yeah, when will I be able to gain acceptance (rq)....

How are you doing?

At the risk of not saying this the "right way" (communication skills), I'll go ahead and give it a try nonetheless...

Sometimes, just sometimes, not all the time, but sometimes I think you both (no offense!) just like to play the "victim card".
All of the NEGATIVITY is just where DOWNWARD SPIRALS begin. The World Sucks, blah blah blah!
FORGIVE ME if I am misreading.

Listen, please, I get it! OCD, ADHD, *ON THE SPECTRUM* [Asperger's / High-Functioning (and I *prefer* the days when they used to call it that, but they no longer do)], *extremely* HYPER, communication skills that *require* the LISTENER to have the proper UNDERSTANDING on how to even LISTEN to me, et cetera. Again, I get it!

Listen, I'm in the same boat! I really am! Everyone on the planet has "something", that's my view! Everyone! To some degree!

I'm in the same boat! But HOW is having OTHERS read the NEGATIVITY supposed to help ANYONE? Serious question! No need to "answer".
You're sitting at a computer, maybe type all of that NEGATIVITY into Notepad or Word. Save or delete after typing, your choice.
You got it "off your shoulder" by typing it! But making others read the NEGATIVITY? That part I really do not understand!
I think of it as a psychologist or counselor, all of the NEGATIVITY that goes into his/her notes IS NOT POSTED FOR PUBLIC CONSUMPTION.

SORRY! I just don't. And I'll say it again, I'm in the same boat. Always makes me think of EEYORE (Winnie-the-Pooh character).
Cool read on mental disorders and POOH CHARACTERS - https://blog.earkick.com/winnie-the-pooh-mental-illness-and-10-characters-explained/

I call it "steering into the skid".
Take control of the situation *NOT* by telling HR "I am disabled, my coworkers are making me uncomfortable" (paraphrasing).
I went that route once. FMLA through HR, this only made situations with coworkers *WORSE*, not better, so I *no longer* go that route!
Granted, was VERY FUN! Throw "I'm taking an FMLA Day" every time somebody stress-induced anxieties into shaking hands.
They would stand there like a deer in the headlights, "What the heck just happened? So now this isn't getting done until he comes back from FMLA?"
Rather, I don't like the group setting and do not function within it, so I've worked every Saturday for THIRTY-PLUS years.
ONLY person in the entire building! And so FOCUSED that I get done in ONE DAY what my coworkers get done in THREE DAYS.
EVERY boss over the years has "noticed". It has worked well for me. Job titles based on what I can 'do', zero college degree.
Other department boss's, "I can't give that project to him, my team feels he does not respect them and he doesn't attend group meetings."
My boss, "You have to trust me, he is the only one that WILL meet your timeline, he WILL communicate with Excel charts and graphs, it works!"

The-10-Pen wrote: *

06 Apr 2026, 08:59

Listen, please, I get it! OCD, ADHD, *ON THE SPECTRUM* [Asperger's / High-Functioning (and I *prefer* the days when they used to call it that, but they no longer do)], *extremely* HYPER, communication skills that *require* the LISTENER to have the proper UNDERSTANDING on how to even LISTEN to me, et cetera. Again, I get it!

Thank you for getting it ... I would say compare to others where I reside I'm also High-Functioning. I can shower and dress myself without assistance compare to others here. I don't cook and need permission to use the stove but I can use the microwave on my own. I'm the ONLY one that has their own computers; the other guys (and 1 girl) here only use their phones, which is sometimes a pain in the ass when others need to print something. I have to hover over their shoulder when somebody else uses my computer and I don't like it at all and they know that. I'm not hyper though but I see others and I can talk (speak) to anybody with special needs and I just skip over what I don't get. Most people here get me by now as I've lived here for quite some time and most everybody knows I'm autistic. You and I would be able to talk to each other without any issues.