Other than that, today I have no plans other than to perhaps go out later for coffee when somebody comes by to pick me up at 4. I'm dressed and ready to go and my anxiety is already through the roof today.. I should be around later this evening to post more; I seem to have a lot to say but (again) I'm struggling to make it make sense and that is the thing - lately I just seem to ramble.
Edited to reflect errors I made previously.
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Posted: 22 Nov 2024, 20:33
by xperceniol_sal
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Posted: 23 Nov 2024, 01:18
by xperceniol_sal
Wow wee am I glad to be back home by/with myself and its quiet just how I like it - just me and my plants and computers. Coffee was good though and I didn't run into many people which was nice. The holidays are a struggle so I thought I'd X-mas is up with a new avatar ... fake it till you make it; or so they say.
Enjoying my movies tonight and dinner wasn't too bad today.
I hope everybody here at eclipse is doing alright and doing what we can to prepare for the holidays.
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Posted: 23 Nov 2024, 02:11
by xperceniol_sal
Ok and okay!
So, I invited everybody from the XP forum over here so we'll see many come and join us from there - I guess from what I read the future of that forum is uncertain. We're stable and we offer (both) Lun3r and Hydra for XP and both Roytam1 and Feodor are here, as well.
Gonna be powering-down early tonight so I directed the XP forum to our thread for welcoming others so when I wake up tomorrow I'll see hopefully some new members. Would be nice to see our forum grow.
Good night and I hope everybody reading is doing well.
So, I invited everybody from the XP forum over here so we'll see many come and join us from there - I guess from what I read the future of that forum is uncertain. We're stable and we offer (both) Lun3r and Hydra for XP and both Roytam1 and Feodor are here, as well.
Gonna be powering-down early tonight so I directed the XP forum to our thread for welcoming others so when I wake up tomorrow I'll see hopefully some new members. Would be nice to see our forum grow.
Good night and I hope everybody reading is doing well.
Sal
hope you have a wonderfull thanksgiving and christmas my friend
So, I invited everybody from the XP forum over here so we'll see many come and join us from there - I guess from what I read the future of that forum is uncertain. We're stable and we offer (both) Lun3r and Hydra for XP and both Roytam1 and Feodor are here, as well.
Gonna be powering-down early tonight so I directed the XP forum to our thread for welcoming others so when I wake up tomorrow I'll see hopefully some new members. Would be nice to see our forum grow.
Good night and I hope everybody reading is doing well.
If K4sum1 and perhaps some others who are active here could also offer his points in the thread, that would consolidate things and hopefully get the ball rolling.
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Posted: 23 Nov 2024, 19:32
by xperceniol_sal
Lol ... I think we did a good job selling this place
I do hope they come over here. So 1 year left over there for them to backup the info.
See ya later and I have a doctors appointment.
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Posted: 23 Nov 2024, 21:28
by UCyborg
Thought I'd make an account here while initially being reserved about it, another online account in another random database stored who knows where, as if I don't have too much of them already. But since it's not the only one I made in recent times...sigh...bloody digitalization!
xperceniol_sal wrote: ↑06 Nov 2024, 23:03
I can no longer get into msfn after the new log in policy; but its ok because my time was up over there anyway ... so I'll stay here and the XP Forums
Seems the only thing they changed is that you must login with email you gave when registered instead of the user name.
xperceniol_sal wrote: ↑18 Nov 2024, 01:20
People are mean - all I can say. I don't understand how people can be so cruel and I'm glad I don't get it. I always thought love would always win out but I was wrong and 52 years has taught me quiet well that in this life the only one you can count on is yourself. When the going gets rough - people get going. Trust nobody; period!
I don't know what love is, but I'm very disconnected from society. I despise it, there's no other reason I (and many others) have to live with butchered and scarred genitals. I'm dead inside, nothing to live for, just crawling through this genitally mutilated existence.
xperceniol_sal wrote: ↑10 Nov 2024, 22:54
Also its getting even harder and harder to find good games online now for XP and I rely on distractions to get through the rough spots.
The only site that comes to mind is https://www.y8.com/, it has Flash games as well. Browser games never kept me interested for long, don't have anything to add to the K4sum1's list of native games, the most I manage myself these days is some old Call of Duty. And sometimes I play NBA 2K24 with my brother on his PlayStation 5.
K4sum1 wrote: ↑21 Nov 2024, 05:46
I'm more into action games, not sure if you're big into that, but here's what I have installed/archived and should* work with XP in no particular order.
► Show Spoiler
Bioshock 1 and 2
Black & White
Crysis 1, Warhead, and 2 (Original)
Deus Ex 1/GOTY, Invisible War, Human Revolution, and The Fall
Diablo 1 and 2
Dragon Age Origins and 2
Divinity Original Sin (Original)
Fable The Lost Chapters
FTL: Faster Than Light
GTA 3, VC, SA, and 4
Half Life series up to Episode 2 and maybe Black Mesa
Left 4 Deaf 1 and 2
LEGO Creator
Mafia 1 and 2 (Original)
Mass Effect 1, 2, and 3
Serious Sam 1, 2, and 3
Sid Meier's Civilization 3, 4, and 5
Sid Meier's Pirates
Starcraft 1 and 2
Starsector (Uses Java 7 but x64. Maybe could be replaced with x86 Java and still work idk.)
The Chronicles of Riddick series
The Legend of Heroes - Trails in the Sky 1, 2, and 3
Tomb Raider series up to GOTY/2013
Age of Wonders
Baldurs Gate 1 and 2
Neverwinter Nights 1 and 2
The Elder Scrolls series up to Skyrim (original)
The Fallout series up to New Vegas
Dishonored
DOOM up to 3 (maybe 2016 works on XP idk)
F.E.A.R series
Hitman series up to Blood Money
Just Cause 1
Metro 2033
S.T.A.L.K.E.R. Series up to Call of Pripyat
Shadow Warrior original and 2013
Stranglehold
The Saboteur
The Witcher 1 and 2
Vampire The Masquerade series up to Bloodlines
Daikatana
Red Faction series up to Guerrilla
Saints Row series up to 3
Wolfenstein series up to 2009(?)
Thief series up to 3/Deadly Shadows
Call of Juarez series
Counter Strike series probably with older versions and unofficial servers (except for 2 which won't work)
Garry's Mod (Probably old version as well)
Halo 1 and 2 with mods to work on XP
Portal 1 and 2
RimWorld (Maybe require old version)
Rust (legacy)
South Park The Stick of Truth
Team Fortress series probably with older versions and unofficial servers
XCOM series up to Enemy Unknown/Within (Enemy Unknown/Within requires mods to run)
Project Cars (Might require mods)
Assassins Creed series up to 4/Black Flag (3 and 4 require mods to run)
Bejeweled series
Brothers In Arms series
Call of Duty series up to Modern Warfare 3
Demolition Company Gold Edition
Driver series
Duke Nukem series
Far Cry series up to 3
Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth1 (Not sure about later entries, but I think 2 and 3 are mostly the same engine wise so they probably work too)
LEGO games series up to 2016 or 2017
Marathon series
Midnight Club series
Mirrors Edge
My Summer Car (maybe older version)
BeamNG.drive (older version)
Peggle series
Prototype 1 and 2
Quake series
Race Driver GRID
Cube 2: Sauerbraten (maybe older version idk)
Star Trek game series before online
The Sims and spinoffs up to an older version of 4
Total War series up to Rome II
Unreal series up to Torunament 3
Toy Story 3 video game
Age Of Empires up to 3
Batman - Arkham Asylum and Arkham City
Goat Simulator (Maybe older version)
Princess Maker series up to some point idk
Long Live The Queen
Max Payne 1, 2, and 3(?)
Paradox Interactive games up to games supported by this patch https://archive.org/details/eu4_winxp_fix
Some of these may pose additional challenges due to Steam, unless pirating / workarounds. Additional notes:
Left 4 Deaf 1 and 2 - nice typo!
DOOM up to 3 (maybe 2016 works on XP idk) - 2016, very unlikely. 32-bit XP is definitely no-go, Wolfenstein: The New Order is one of the last id Tech games that could work on XP x64 (not officially supported). Maybe also The Evil Within.
Then dust yourself off and try again
Posted: 23 Nov 2024, 21:29
by RedBeam
UCyborg wrote: ↑23 Nov 2024, 21:28
Thought I'd make an account here while initially being reserved about it, another online account in another random database stored who knows where, as if I don't have too much of them already. But since it's not the only one I made in recent times...sigh...bloody digitalization!
xperceniol_sal wrote: ↑06 Nov 2024, 23:03
I can no longer get into msfn after the new log in policy; but its ok because my time was up over there anyway ... so I'll stay here and the XP Forums
Seems the only thing they changed is that you must login with email you gave when registered instead of the user name.
xperceniol_sal wrote: ↑18 Nov 2024, 01:20
People are mean - all I can say. I don't understand how people can be so cruel and I'm glad I don't get it. I always thought love would always win out but I was wrong and 52 years has taught me quiet well that in this life the only one you can count on is yourself. When the going gets rough - people get going. Trust nobody; period!
I don't know what love is, but I'm very disconnected from society. I despise it, there's no other reason I (and many others) have to live with butchered and scarred genitals. I'm dead inside, nothing to live for, just crawling through this genitally mutilated existence.
xperceniol_sal wrote: ↑10 Nov 2024, 22:54
Also its getting even harder and harder to find good games online now for XP and I rely on distractions to get through the rough spots.
The only site that comes to mind is https://www.y8.com/, it has Flash games as well. Browser games never kept me interested for long, don't have anything to add to the K4sum1's list of native games, the most I manage myself these days is some old Call of Duty. And sometimes I play NBA 2K24 with my brother on his PlayStation 5.
K4sum1 wrote: ↑21 Nov 2024, 05:46
I'm more into action games, not sure if you're big into that, but here's what I have installed/archived and should* work with XP in no particular order.
► Show Spoiler
Bioshock 1 and 2
Black & White
Crysis 1, Warhead, and 2 (Original)
Deus Ex 1/GOTY, Invisible War, Human Revolution, and The Fall
Diablo 1 and 2
Dragon Age Origins and 2
Divinity Original Sin (Original)
Fable The Lost Chapters
FTL: Faster Than Light
GTA 3, VC, SA, and 4
Half Life series up to Episode 2 and maybe Black Mesa
Left 4 Deaf 1 and 2
LEGO Creator
Mafia 1 and 2 (Original)
Mass Effect 1, 2, and 3
Serious Sam 1, 2, and 3
Sid Meier's Civilization 3, 4, and 5
Sid Meier's Pirates
Starcraft 1 and 2
Starsector (Uses Java 7 but x64. Maybe could be replaced with x86 Java and still work idk.)
The Chronicles of Riddick series
The Legend of Heroes - Trails in the Sky 1, 2, and 3
Tomb Raider series up to GOTY/2013
Age of Wonders
Baldurs Gate 1 and 2
Neverwinter Nights 1 and 2
The Elder Scrolls series up to Skyrim (original)
The Fallout series up to New Vegas
Dishonored
DOOM up to 3 (maybe 2016 works on XP idk)
F.E.A.R series
Hitman series up to Blood Money
Just Cause 1
Metro 2033
S.T.A.L.K.E.R. Series up to Call of Pripyat
Shadow Warrior original and 2013
Stranglehold
The Saboteur
The Witcher 1 and 2
Vampire The Masquerade series up to Bloodlines
Daikatana
Red Faction series up to Guerrilla
Saints Row series up to 3
Wolfenstein series up to 2009(?)
Thief series up to 3/Deadly Shadows
Call of Juarez series
Counter Strike series probably with older versions and unofficial servers (except for 2 which won't work)
Garry's Mod (Probably old version as well)
Halo 1 and 2 with mods to work on XP
Portal 1 and 2
RimWorld (Maybe require old version)
Rust (legacy)
South Park The Stick of Truth
Team Fortress series probably with older versions and unofficial servers
XCOM series up to Enemy Unknown/Within (Enemy Unknown/Within requires mods to run)
Project Cars (Might require mods)
Assassins Creed series up to 4/Black Flag (3 and 4 require mods to run)
Bejeweled series
Brothers In Arms series
Call of Duty series up to Modern Warfare 3
Demolition Company Gold Edition
Driver series
Duke Nukem series
Far Cry series up to 3
Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth1 (Not sure about later entries, but I think 2 and 3 are mostly the same engine wise so they probably work too)
LEGO games series up to 2016 or 2017
Marathon series
Midnight Club series
Mirrors Edge
My Summer Car (maybe older version)
BeamNG.drive (older version)
Peggle series
Prototype 1 and 2
Quake series
Race Driver GRID
Cube 2: Sauerbraten (maybe older version idk)
Star Trek game series before online
The Sims and spinoffs up to an older version of 4
Total War series up to Rome II
Unreal series up to Torunament 3
Toy Story 3 video game
Age Of Empires up to 3
Batman - Arkham Asylum and Arkham City
Goat Simulator (Maybe older version)
Princess Maker series up to some point idk
Long Live The Queen
Max Payne 1, 2, and 3(?)
Paradox Interactive games up to games supported by this patch https://archive.org/details/eu4_winxp_fix
Some of these may pose additional challenges due to Steam, unless pirating / workarounds. Additional notes:
Left 4 Deaf 1 and 2 - nice typo!
DOOM up to 3 (maybe 2016 works on XP idk) - 2016, very unlikely. 32-bit XP is definitely no-go, Wolfenstein: The New Order is one of the last id Tech games that could work on XP x64 (not officially supported). Maybe also The Evil Within.
it's good to see an old friend again and welcome to eclipse i myself used to go by legacyfan at one point there 3 years ago until i moved here and became good friends with @k4sum1
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Posted: 23 Nov 2024, 21:35
by UCyborg
@RedBeam
I'd recognize your writing style anywhere!
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Posted: 23 Nov 2024, 21:38
by RedBeam
UCyborg wrote: ↑23 Nov 2024, 21:35
@RedBeam
I'd recognize your writing style anywhere!
@mina7601 is also on this forum but under a new name and less active
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Posted: 23 Nov 2024, 22:03
by xperceniol_sal
Welcome @UCyborg - I'm glad to see you again. Yeah, that was the issue with log in over there after the change - that old email I must have used is no longer active because when I head over to the site I can not recover that account (if I was even certain which email I used in the first place), so I'm locked out of msfn now.
Again, great to have you over here
Sal
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Posted: 23 Nov 2024, 22:23
by xperceniol_sal
UCyborg wrote: ↑23 Nov 2024, 21:28
I don't know what love is, but I'm very disconnected from society. I despise it, there's no other reason I (and many others) have to live with butchered and scarred genitals. I'm dead inside, nothing to live for, just crawling through this genitally mutilated existence.
Ugh ... but yeah, I can relate. I'm just crawling through this existence myself. Like the thread tittle - if at first you don't succeed; dust yourself off and try again, try again. Kidding! I only went with that title to draw and old buddy of mine Dave @Digidave from msfn to follow me over here but I haven't had contact with him since 2021 and I don't know, he wasn't doing very well then so who knows now.
This is basically the eclipse cafe and I welcome anybody to chat about anything here. Also we now have a 'be humble - be kind' depression detox thread here; as well.
Cool and I see this forum growing and becoming more active.
UCyborg wrote: ↑23 Nov 2024, 21:28
I don't know what love is, but I'm very disconnected from society. I despise it, there's no other reason I (and many others) have to live with butchered and scarred genitals. I'm dead inside, nothing to live for, just crawling through this genitally mutilated existence.
Ugh ... but yeah, I can relate. I'm just crawling through this existence myself. Like the thread tittle - if at first you don't succeed; dust yourself off and try again, try again. Kidding! I only went with that title to draw and old buddy of mine Dave @Digidave from msfn to follow me over here but I haven't had contact with him since 2021 and I don't know, he wasn't doing very well then so who knows now.
This is basically the eclipse cafe and I welcome anybody to chat about anything here. Also we now have a 'be humble - be kind' depression detox thread here; as well.
Cool and I see this forum growing and becoming more active.
were pretty much the last frontier in legacy windows support now with the state alot of other forums are in right now
@Xperceniol_Sal.. as someone that has recovered from deep depression i can promise you that you will defeat it your a strong person and i beleave you can do it
If you don't mind me asking, how did you recover from deep depression?
i did my research and looked at articles from different mental health institutes and found alot of valuable information that helped me turn my life around again and have taken fish oil pills as well which help your brain and is a big connection in lessening depression and bad thoughts
OK and Okay!
So I started taking my fish oil pills and hope to one day recover myself and get off the narcotics. I've been doing a lot of research on fish oil and I discovered it can be very helpful for those of us dealing with Autism. Both the EPA and DHA play their part in brain activity in such (especially the DHA).
So I'm going to slowly taper off of the benzo because that one monkey I'd like to get off of my back.
Wish me luck - I think I'm gonna need it.
EDIT: Needed to fix mistakes. Sorry!
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Posted: 24 Nov 2024, 22:32
by Compa
UCyborg wrote: ↑23 Nov 2024, 21:28
Thought I'd make an account here while initially being reserved about it, another online account in another random database stored who knows where, as if I don't have too much of them already. But since it's not the only one I made in recent times...sigh...bloody digitalization!
Could be worse, could be javashite-heavy, google-unfriendly Discord...
UCyborg wrote: ↑23 Nov 2024, 21:28Seems the only thing they changed is that you must login with email you gave when registered instead of the user name.
MSFN has pretty much been on life support since sometime before this board even started. There's a reason we hauled ship in the first place, and it wasn't because MSFN was doing all fine and dandy at the time.
UCyborg wrote: ↑23 Nov 2024, 21:28I don't know what love is, but I'm very disconnected from society. I despise it, there's no other reason I (and many others) have to live with butchered and scarred genitals. I'm dead inside, nothing to live for, just crawling through this genitally mutilated existence.
Huh? I don't really want to pry into this too much, since it's clearly traumatising you talking about it on a public forum as it is. I suppose the PM function is there if you want to vent to somebody privately (be it me or somebody you know better on here).
UCyborg wrote: ↑23 Nov 2024, 21:28
The only site that comes to mind is https://www.y8.com/, it has Flash games as well. Browser games never kept me interested for long, don't have anything to add to the K4sum1's list of native games, the most I manage myself these days is some old Call of Duty. And sometimes I play NBA 2K24 with my brother on his PlayStation 5.
CoD2-W@W was peak. I liked BlOps1 too (though PC port sucks).
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Posted: 25 Nov 2024, 02:20
by xperceniol_sal
Well ... I'm not banned from msfn and I can read just can't log in. I still read to keep up on Mypal related 'stuff'
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Posted: 25 Nov 2024, 18:44
by Compa
I don't even look at MSFN anymore. I was banned ages ago and also have no need to look over there unless I have to.
Everything I need is already here, pretty much.
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Posted: 26 Nov 2024, 02:23
by xperceniol_sal
Yeah, I should just stop looking over there myself, Compa.
Today was rough, I can't lie. I just get this sinking feeling things aren't going to be OK. I feel empty and hopeless. I've lost faith in (so called) humanity now. I didn't desire to become a bitter old bastard but I worry I can't prevent this nose dive into the abyss. I (truly) wish I was better able to enjoy the holidays but taking into consideration that I come from a broken damaged politically divided family I guess I hope for peace and quiet just how I need it without people. I see society as being pretty damn fake now and you can't trust anybody.
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Posted: 26 Nov 2024, 03:35
by RedBeam
xperceniol_sal wrote: ↑26 Nov 2024, 02:23
Yeah, I should just stop looking over there myself, Compa.
Today was rough, I can't lie. I just get this sinking feeling things aren't going to be OK. I feel empty and hopeless. I've lost faith in (so called) humanity now. I didn't desire to become a bitter old bastard but I worry I can't prevent this nose dive into the abyss. I (truly) wish I was better able to enjoy the holidays but taking into consideration that I come from a broken damaged politically divided family I guess I hope for peace and quiet just how I need it without people. I see society as being pretty damn fake now and you can't trust anybody.
Then dust yourself off and try again
Posted: 26 Nov 2024, 19:13
by xperceniol_sal
Thank you, my friend, I'll try to be more positive.
Then dust yourself off and try again
Posted: 26 Nov 2024, 23:14
by UCyborg
Compa wrote: ↑24 Nov 2024, 22:32
Could be worse, could be javashite-heavy, google-unfriendly Discord...
Anyone remembers Xfire?
Compa wrote: ↑24 Nov 2024, 22:32
Huh? I don't really want to pry into this too much, since it's clearly traumatising you talking about it on a public forum as it is. I suppose the PM function is there if you want to vent to somebody privately (be it me or somebody you know better on here).
Thanks, it's not really talked about as much as it should be and there are number of creepy malicious individuals out there with totally fucked up mindsets. Just leave children alone FFS!
It's so depressing never really knowing what it's supposed to feel like down there. I'd never voluntarily sign up for c-word.
Compa wrote: ↑24 Nov 2024, 22:32
CoD2-W@W was peak. I liked BlOps1 too (though PC port sucks).
In what way do you think it sucks? Performance?
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Posted: 27 Nov 2024, 01:08
by Compa
I uh, don't mean to get too personal into your life history but were you raised Muslim by any chance? Somehow, that wouldn't surprise me especially given there is a minority Bosnian populace in Slovenia, which makes me wonder if you have direct relations there too
Xfire... rings a bell, never used it. I barely used Skype for a few months before everyone jumped on The Next Big Thing and left me in the dust.
As for Black Ops 1, the PC port was poorly optimised on launch day, but it got sorted out with patches, AFAIK.
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Posted: 27 Nov 2024, 21:18
by UCyborg
No, it was done before my memories start for so called "medical reasons".
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Posted: 28 Nov 2024, 01:40
by xperceniol_sal
UCyborg wrote: ↑27 Nov 2024, 21:18
No, it was done before my memories start for so called "medical reasons".
I can only empathize with your situation.
Just, I don't know, like, I don't know, nowadays I live the life of a hermit. I don't go out much. I think I need to keep it that way taking into consideration how society has turned for the worst.
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Posted: 28 Nov 2024, 19:38
by xperceniol_sal
I recon that to get through this I'm going to have to let go of the nonsense going on in my head that doesn't apply to me. I'm going to have to get selfish and look after myself and listen to my body. My mind get boggled easily now.
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Posted: 28 Nov 2024, 22:21
by xperceniol_sal
Must keep my expectations realistic.
Edited
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Posted: 30 Nov 2024, 01:21
by xperceniol_sal
I've been meditating more each day to try to detox the mind. Too much bullshit swirling around.
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Posted: 01 Dec 2024, 14:59
by UCyborg
Well, I have nothing more to say. Next year will probably be more of the same. Just wandering aimlessly. It's unlikey I'll post much here, I have nothing to contribute. I usually get nothing out of these sorts of forums. MSFN's been more of a time waster in recent years. But perhaps that's all we really do at the core, waste time until we perish.
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Posted: 01 Dec 2024, 20:26
by xperceniol_sal
UCyborg wrote: ↑01 Dec 2024, 14:59
Well, I have nothing more to say. Next year will probably be more of the same. Just wandering aimlessly. It's unlikely I'll post much here, I have nothing to contribute. I usually get nothing out of these sorts of forums. MSFN's been more of a time waster in recent years. But perhaps that's all we really do at the core, waste time until we perish.
I understand ... I hope things improve for you. Wishing you well.
