Be Humble Be Forgiving Be Open Be Kind (Depression Detox Thread)

[RedBeam]

this is my thread where you can talk about what made you humble yourself or forgive someone of things they did wrong learning to being more open about how your perception of people is or just being the good kind person you were born to be this thread is for those suffering with the corruption and evilness in are world and learning to overcome your depression of life to really become who you where born to be

[K4sum1]

Unless the person fucks over me or my friends, I can't afford to make them an enemy.

[RedBeam]

telling someone i completely despised that there outfit looks unique and really handsome

[xperceniol_sal]

I love your new detox thread - very nice to see and I'll be sure to chime in when I can. You have a good heart

[xperceniol_sal]

I've learnt that forgiveness is best saved for self - not always easy to allow ourselves that forgiveness we would offer others. I can forgive but not forget (meaning) once somebody shows you their ass - you keep then far away.

I been dealing with depression most of my life and it followed me into adulthood and its still a day-by-day battle. I try to distract myself and computers/browsers and games and my TV and DVD's and I appreciate my lovely plants. I've just lost my passion and I need to (somehow) rediscover this again. I'm not living, rather, just existing and taking it moment-by-moment now until I can recover.

Good luck with this thread and I might abandon my own and utilize your new one.

[xperceniol_sal]

...what made you humble yourself...

I've become way more humble over the years and I try not to take myself so seriously. I'm not an evil person because that isn't in me, sure, I'm no angel and I've not been perfect and I've contributed to my own situation; I admit that. The first step is to understand yourself and accept yourself and the shortcomings. I try anyway, I don't preach because that would make me a hypocrite as I'm struggling. I think I need to keep my appointments with my therapist and not allow society for bring me down (further).

[xperceniol_sal]

[xperceniol_sal]

Ya know, I do think people are missing humility - people are on an ego trip nowadays and society is demonstrating this every day. I agree ... be open and kind; I'm very kind but not always so open anymore and my trust issues have gotten worse seeing whats been happening here in the US. There is this anger running rough·shod and if only people took the time to think about others this world could become a loving place; but I don't see this happening anytime soon. I hope one day.

[RedBeam]

Ya know, I do think people are missing humility - people are on an ego trip nowadays and society is demonstrating this every day. I agree ... be open and kind; I'm very kind but not always so open anymore and my trust issues have gotten worse seeing whats been happening here in the US. There is this anger running rough·shod and if only people took the time to think about others this world could become a loving place; but I don't see this happening anytime soon. I hope one day.

with the way big company's only care about themselfs and money that definitely present today

[xperceniol_sal]

Yeah, companies are flirting with greed now and it shows - they are predicting a good black Friday turnout this year even though people are knee deep in debt here. Me, I'm lucky I have nobody I have to buy for and all I want is peace and quiet most days. Luckily the walls are pretty thick here and I don't usually hear people with the TV and my white noise machine.

Enjoy your holiday @RedBeam and I hope you are safe down there. North East USA is pretty safe; as well.

[xperceniol_sal]

Ya know what, whilst I might seem chatty online and upbeat, that is not me at all in real life and I'm very very shy around other people and I could easily spend a week in the house without coming into contact with other people and go unnoticed - I'm real loner city nowadays and I see this not changing for myself in this current society. I try to embrace the silence and my own company. Other people cloud my judgement and I don't trust easily anymore. Been burned too much in my lifetime.

[UCyborg]

I manage to comment on message boards on specific topics from time to time. Life's lame when not much seems interesting. Recently I was in a restaurant with coworkers (paid on behalf of the company) and just sitting there with nothing to say. Had to use bathroom about 4 times, even though there was nothing to be anxious about. If this is even anxiety, I remember it was pretty bad when taking driving lessons years ago, I did not fear driving consciously, but still my bladder was filling uncontrollably and bathroom break was mandatory after each hour, sessions were 2 school hours long (2x 45 min). It was happening despite not drinking anything in the morning before leaving for the lessons.

The existential crisis struck pretty hard when I took leave this summer. Was chatting with coworker sometime afterwards, she suggested I should sign up on a dating website. Ha, I've no idea how that is supposed go, what do I even say etc., just thinking about signing up makes my mind freeze.

The only thing that changed since, I dusted off my old Reddit account, currently only use it to vent about that other thing.

[xperceniol_sal]

I manage to comment on message boards on specific topics from time to time. Life's lame when not much seems interesting. Recently I was in a restaurant with coworkers (paid on behalf of the company) and just sitting there with nothing to say. Had to use bathroom about 4 times, even though there was nothing to be anxious about. If this is even anxiety, I remember it was pretty bad when taking driving lessons years ago, I did not fear driving consciously, but still my bladder was filling uncontrollably and bathroom break was mandatory after each hour, sessions were 2 school hours long (2x 45 min). It was happening despite not drinking anything in the morning before leaving for the lessons.

The existential crisis struck pretty hard when I took leave this summer. Was chatting with coworker sometime afterwards, she suggested I should sign up on a dating website. Ha, I've no idea how that is supposed go, what do I even say etc., just thinking about signing up makes my mind freeze.

The only thing that changed since, I dusted off my old Reddit account, currently only use it to vent about that other thing.

Yeah, same! Now at least. When I was younger I was on a few dating sites but the issue was, that, I was not looking for a mate or a 'hook-up' ... just seeking friendship. Just be yourself is about all I can say and don't pretend to be something you're not; if you're shy and don't know what to say - say that! Yeah my mind freezes quite often nowadays ... even on this forum. This is the only tech forum I'm on now apart from my 2 mental health sites which I'm not all that active anymore. I'm not a fan of dating sites because its changed a lot over the years and largely patronized by Russians and 'hit it and quit it' types Lol....

But that being said, you could always try and get your feet wet and see for yourself. Its OK to have anxiety - you're not alone - also watch out for the gold-diggers never give out money to anybody you don't know.

Gonna post this and I might ad more and make another posting because today was not good for me and I woke up in bad shape. I ate dinner and didn't leave the house at all and I'm fine with that.

[UCyborg]

I feel like some sort of change would be good, but I'm just in the same old loop keeping the basics together. Things don't start to make more sense with age, heh. Don't even know what I'm working for. Just to do it again tomorrow?

So my mind ponders the ideas. There's no other way than to actually try. And my mind is blank, again, guess it's time for a shutdown.

[Compa]

Don't even know what I'm working for. Just to do it again tomorrow?

They say it's for your pension or whatever, and then they bloody take that away from you*. Sometimes they say it's to service yourself/others/the country/whatever, but bleh. I pretty much just can't be arsed with it because when you're employee #23948 or whatever who even gives a shit and then there's the constant need to commit to things one eventually just gets bored of.

* Happened to my dad a few years back, so he quit his job and started on his own. He's doing better than he ever did at british gas lol

[RedBeam]

How to Deal with Stress and Depression During the Holidays https://www.healthline.com/health/depression/holiday-blues

[xperceniol_sal]

Its just very hard when the family unit it severally damaged and nobody can get along anymore - this is my family and I want nothing to do with them - they've written me off and I HAVE written them off as well. Eclipse is my family.

[RedBeam]

Its just very hard when the family unit it severally damaged and nobody can get along anymore - this is my family and I want nothing to do with them - they've written me off and I HAVE written them off as well. Eclipse is my family.

and we will forever treat you as family and are always welcomed with open arms

[xperceniol_sal]

I wanted to reply rather than just like your posting, because, what you wrote means a lot to me right now.

[RedBeam]

I manage to comment on message boards on specific topics from time to time. Life's lame when not much seems interesting. Recently I was in a restaurant with coworkers (paid on behalf of the company) and just sitting there with nothing to say. Had to use bathroom about 4 times, even though there was nothing to be anxious about. If this is even anxiety, I remember it was pretty bad when taking driving lessons years ago, I did not fear driving consciously, but still my bladder was filling uncontrollably and bathroom break was mandatory after each hour, sessions were 2 school hours long (2x 45 min). It was happening despite not drinking anything in the morning before leaving for the lessons.

The existential crisis struck pretty hard when I took leave this summer. Was chatting with coworker sometime afterwards, she suggested I should sign up on a dating website. Ha, I've no idea how that is supposed go, what do I even say etc., just thinking about signing up makes my mind freeze.

The only thing that changed since, I dusted off my old Reddit account, currently only use it to vent about that other thing.

https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/features/ways-to-reduce-anxiety

[UCyborg]

Families suck. I kinda wish, if I had to be born, to be born somewhere else.

[xperceniol_sal]

Yeah, I have a troubled family that I no longer keep in touch with so I get it. I'm sorry to hear this and I hope you can find some way to appreciate what you do have a shift the focus to that and away from the problems.

[UCyborg]

It just hit me at some point what a strange bunch we are. Years ago, I used to think what a perfect family we are. All those senseless arguments and I was just there as observer. How it formed also makes no sense, father was an absent workaholic.

Sometimes, I have these thoughts, how would things be different, if at all, growing in a different environment.

[xperceniol_sal]

Well ... we can't go back and most times I wish I could also get a 're-do' ... but I don't know either whether I'd be different and I don't want to change for other people - that is stupid - I want to change for myself.

Yeah, holidays are tough and you're not alone. Many families are broken from politics and religion.

[xperceniol_sal]

"I went to a bookstore and asked the saleswoman Where's the self-help section? She said is she told me it would defeat the purpose." -George Carlin

[xperceniol_sal]

To be honest; during the holidays I walk around like a walking zombie cadaver - lifeless per usual.

[xperceniol_sal]

[xperceniol_sal]

[xperceniol_sal]

[xperceniol_sal]

Yeah, I don't know, been rough lately, just managing I guess; I don't know.