Then dust yourself off and try again

[The-10-Pen]

Oh, so that's why I have no irl friends, I don't have the money for it.

LOL

Actually, what I meant, is that there are COMPANIES out there that PAY people to basically be a "friend" to folks that are kind of a 'strain on society'.
Kind of keep that 'strain in check'.
Kind of doing it out of the "kindness of their heart".
et cetera

What one company deems as "special needs" my vary from company to company.

Just trust me on this, none of us like to "judge" others in society, but when you see somebody in public that, let's say, looks like they are 40yrs old but act like they are 6yrs old, the real adult standing next to that person and being "patient and kind" may very likely be PAID to be standing next to that "6yr old".

[UCyborg]

I don't see how you can have friends with the way people are, both IRL and online.

[xperceniol_sal]

I don't see how you can have friends with the way people are, both IRL and online.

I don't either, UCyborg

[UCyborg]

Oh, so that's why I have no irl friends, I don't have the money for it.

But you have the money to pay for the hosting of this website.

[The-10-Pen]

You overestimate the cost to host a website.
In this day and age, you can host for LESS THAN $2 (USD) per month.
With the caveat that you already have an extra computer lying around (which I would say that MOST of us on this forum have at least two).
And are already paying an ISP (which you wouldn't be reading this if you are not).

But sure, let's call it $20 per month or so for "higher quality" web sites.

I have ran a server in the past but it was just for family.
It really didn't "cost" me anything!
But in my case, I had to update the family about every 3wks that the IP Address changed - not that costly to resolve but didn't look into it.

What "creams my corn" is when web site "owners" think they should rake in TENS OF THOUSANDS in "donations" to host a web site that barely breaks a thousand for an entire year !!!

If you don't believe me, I encourage you to see for yourself. Find some random web site seeking "donations" to fund hosting expenses then ask to "see their books". THEY WILL NOT REVEAL THEIR COSTS !!!

[Possum98]

while some of this i agree with i 100% do not agree with suicide being the answer to everything! you will never be happy in life by throwing it away! your life is precious and killing yourself over thinking nobody likes you is a terrible reason to not live anymore death is not the fix to the worlds problems and thinking nothing will change is not going to help anything just take it from me i was that way myself at one point and im now on an alot better path then i was 3 years ago please don"t make death a priority!

[UCyborg]

@The-10-Pen
True, I know the K4sum1's remark was meant as a joke. Still, I hear modern web isn't exactly friendly to small players, with scrapers/bots etc. And censorship laws being cooked at some places...

I didn't deal with servers much in general, but back then I figured there are services that let you create hostname, so you don't have to deal with IPs.
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Where do people find time/energy for friends anyway? Besides other issues, I don't feel like dealing with people beyond what my job forces me to. Though I guess consequentially, that way one's only interactions with people are forced, pointless and meaningless.

Speaking of which, I tried a bit of programming at workplace recently. Not really employed as developer there, just wasn't much usual work. I got access to code repo and they accepted the smaller changes, the bigger ones are on hold for now (testing etc.), though looking good.

But honestly, it's not something I want to be doing every day either. I kinda wish I could go somewhere else, but there's nowhere to go, would take a lot of luck for things to not be worse someplace else. It's just getting old...

[xperceniol_sal]

Where do people find time/energy for friends anyway? Besides other issues, I don't feel like dealing with people beyond what my job forces me to. Though I guess consequentially, that way one's only interactions with people are forced, pointless and meaningless.

Hi, UCyborg; I hope you're doing well. Sorry I know I've been quiet as of late but I've been in a dark place mentally and I decided a break from the forum was needed and I feel a bit better now.

What I'm doing is removing friendship off the table now and trying to give more focus to the acquaintances I run into that are friendly to me and try to appreciate that much. I tend to keep to myself nowadays anyway and enjoy my plants and movies and music. I don't think I could handle friendship now anyway in this condition.

Anyways ... I do hope you are ok and I didn't forget about you.

TTYL

Sal

[The-10-Pen]

To be honest, I *prefer* solitude!
I have to pretend to be a "team player" at work at times but my job role is actually quite independent of others.
Just do my thing, hit deadlines, trudge along.

I've witnessed so many odd things over the years that I don't really have much "faith" in people - ESPECIALLY WOMEN !!! !!! !!!

Friend of mine once went through a divorce, SHE had a restraining order on him, but SHE would INVITE (via text, court-supplied "exhibit A") him to the house she got in the divorce to fix whatever. And she'd have the neighbor call the cops for him being on the property in violation of restraining order.

'nother friend was FIRED because his EX kept showing up at his place of employment and kept inciting drama in the parking lot.

Yet another friend, also divorced, was also INVITED (text, "exhibit A") and the ex's son was hiding and attacked him. Ex and son planned it!

Still another friend stood up from a table at a crowded restaurant and bumped into a waitress running around and not watching where she was going. Witnessed by several. The two fell to the ground but neither was hurt. HE went to HELP her up and SHE accused him of "touching her boob" in the process of helping her up. NO WITNESSES BACKED UP HER CLAIM. But SHE ran him through HELL AND BACK in courtroom drama for over a YEAR before the case eventually was dropped.

Sure, MEN are quite often TRASH also. BUT SO ARE WOMEN !!!

Anywhoo... Not to be a buzzkill, lol.

[xperceniol_sal]

No worries about being a buzzkill, ha

Yeah, I think it best to find solace in the solitude and appreciate the little contact I have with the public. I don't socialize anymore for multiple reasons actually ... one being I'd rather avoid egotistical people and self-centered people out there. I stay in the house a lot. I really wish I could say things will get better but my therapist says it has to get worse before it can get better and I can barely keep up now in this rat race. Society reminds me every day that it best to keep to myself and give little to other strangers. Also I fear people and some times I don't feel safe anymore being alone without my support workers.

I don't know.........

[RedBeam]

(For Eclipse Community) hello everyone i won"t be staying long just wanted to get on and say that Ive left the forums its not because anyone did anything wrong or anything but because i"ve moved on to other things in life besides windows preservation and claiming life is pointless im young and still have everything ahead of me i don"t want to spend it complaining about how some person did something else or someone else did wrong to someone the point is im retiring from all forums effective immediately and will be gone from eclipse in the future the world is an amazing place created for all of us we should not be using it for grudges against past actions -RedBeam

[xperceniol_sal]

...im retiring from all forums effective immediately...

So good to hear from you, RedBeam; always is. Yes you are young but mature and thank you for your posting. I just wanted to say I do hope you might continue with your games forums, at least.

Take er easy...

Sal

[UCyborg]

I don't know.........

This sums it up for me in general...